Worst day yet

Yesterday was a very bad MS day in my books. Let me tell you about it.

I woke up from a solid nights sleep and thinking, this should be a good day. Nice uninterrupted sleep. Ah....Then I crawled out of bed...Oh no.. this might not be good...

I was dizzy most of the day. When I'm dizzy it's not like the room is spinning, it's more like I was just shaken and I'm trying to steady myself. We had a brunch date at 11:30 so Mark took care of Grace while I made her lunch, bottles, got showered blah blah blah...By the time Mark went to shower I was wiped. I typically have a sit down and start feeling better. And I was looking forward to the car ride because of the AC. Little did I know this would end up being my life saver later!

At our brunch, it was busy, lots of people talking and visiting. I always have a wondering eye too, even with family when it comes to Grace. This takes energy! She has energy! It was warm in the house and outside was warming up very quickly as well.

After I ate I was really feeling drained. I sat down for a rest but I was just not getting better. I finally grabbed Grace, sat down to change her diaper and told Mark that it was time to go. Poor Mark. You see he was talking with his mom and I trying to make plans for today. I could only focus on one thing at a time and I looked at him and said "Honestly Mark, I don't give a S*** about that right now. I can't think straight." I'm sorry hun. Then I started to cry. I was hot and flustered. I felt bad and embarrassed. Grace was squirming. People were all over and wanting my attention. I broke down and think I had a panic attack.

Once in the car, Mark pumped the AC as high as it would go and we left. It took me a good 30 minutes to calm down. Wow.. didn't like that at all.

To make matters worst, later I sat Grace on the potty and I just couldn't cope again. I called for Mark but he didn't hear me that time. Again with the tears and hyper ventilating. For those of you who know me...I don't tend to cry so I wasn't liking the crying on top of being a mess. Grace snuggled me and tried to make me feel better. I love her! Again, it took a good 30 minutes to get steady again.

I never want a day like that again.

Now I'm getting ready to go to the hospital for my eye checkup..I'll write tomorrow!

Hospitals...

Ever wonder why there are so many services offered in a hospital but you have to go to different hospitals for certain things?

I think they should make the mother of all hospitals and have everything in one place.
Why do I feel this way? Let me tell you!

On Monday I will be going to the Rockyview hospital which is about 40 minutes away during rush hour. At it will be rush hour... Here I will be seeing Dr. Costello who is my optical neurologist. I will be doing follow up testing on my vision in my left eye.

On Tuesday I must go to the Foothills hospital which takes 20 minutes to get there. (This is in a car by the way, sometimes I may need to do this by transit) This is where the MS Clinic is located. Here I will meet again with Dr. Costello. This time it will be to discuss only my MS. I will be getting my prescription of Copaxone and tell her my history, all my past and present symptoms. I presume she will ask if I would be in a research study again but on this I am not sure!

Now you understand my "All in one hospital" theory!

Thanks Ron & Mark for taking me and Donna for watching Grace!
I'll keep you posted!

Skipping my remedy

Last night I called Donna who is my mother in law as well as my homeopath.
Over the last few weeks I have been seeing red spots in my left eye. This is the eye that previously went blind. For this symptom I have been taking Phosphorous as well as my MS remedy.

For the past month I have had many pregnancy symptoms. Don't panic! After several urine tests as well as a blood test I am not pregnant.

My thought process was that with MS when pregnant all symptoms often go away for the duration of the pregnancy. In homeopathy you are treated by symptoms. Certain remedies are for certain things depending on the way you feel. So naturally I started thinking that the MS remedy could be making me feel this way in efforts to put an end to the MS symptoms. We decided to stop the MS remedy last night and see what happened.

Well...let me tell you. That was a mistake!
This morning I woke up very tired, I was up in the middle of the night in pain, I am dizzy and pretty much "zoned out".

In homeopathy this is called a prooving. This indicated that the remedy is working and the right one for me at this time.I now know for sure that the MS remedy taken nightly is helping me more then I realised!

Tonight I will be taking both remedies and see how tomorrow goes!